A Positive Start

Today i've woken up feeling a little better about the whole dating situation. I know I need to relax and enjoy it so that's what i'm going to do. I think. I hope..... No seriously, for the sake of my mental health I need to chill out. Anxiety is horrible and I don't want to feel this way anymore. I'm 24 (ok nearly 25) i'm still so young with my whole life ahead of me. The way I talk sometimes you would think i'm way past ever meeting anyone which logically I know is ridiculous. The problem with me is that I get attached to people quickly. Not just men, I mean anyone and that in turn leads to me getting hurt when they turn out to be something different to what I had built in my head. I've seen so many people come and go from my life, boyfriends, family, friends. I'm sick of it. Not just for me but for my girls too. So I won't lie, today i've already checked my phone a 100 times to see if I have a Whats App message from S. I've wondered what's he doing, has he thought about me, is he looking forward to seeing me. This needs to stop. He knows about my anxiety, I figured it best to tell him as I didn't want him to think i'm nuts. I guess the fact that he hasn't run for the hills is a good thing. Oh shitting hell i'm rambling again.......... Right ok, today i'm just going to get on with things. Keep busy, not over analyze and if needs be release my feelings on here. So ciao for now :)