You Said What?!

Sometimes I wonder if I was actually born with any brains. Last night it was date night with S. We had cinema plans and he came over early evening so we could catch up before the film. That was fine, got on great as usual. Went and grabbed some food, crapped ourselves watching Sinister (seriously he jumped as much a me)and then went back to mine again for abit after. So really it was a successful evening until I opened my big mouth. I am actually cringing thinking about what happened as he went to leave. For some unknown reason I asked him where did he see 'us' going. Why oh why did I ask this? It came out totally wrong. In my head I wanted to know if this is something that he would like to develop over time. Instead it came out like I was asking if I was his girlfriend now after only meeting up a few times. I could feel myself start to flush and avoided his eye contact. I started to ramble and try and claw at my remaining bit of dignity. He was sweet and said something along the lines of we don't need to rush things and he likes me. Today I woke up feeling awful. I was totally convinced he would be thinking i'm a total nut job who wants a relationship after a few dates so I obviously text him explaining what I had actually mean last night and bless him he said he totally understood what I meant and no I haven't ruined anything. Phewwwww. Panic over. I've definitely learnt what not to say on a date